My B-side

Ode to Naivety

I sat under my desk-turned-fort and made a legendary verdict. I, Melissa Gerth, as of this day, will be grown-up. Don’t think I chose it on my own. Terrible, gut-wrenching/my-heart-stopped-pumping-blood-for-five-minutes news rained acid on my parade, murdering my soul in a most malicious manner. Like waking up from a pleasant dream to a world much like the one Neo saw in The Matrix, not IN the Matrix, but in the movie the Matrix...Anyway, I had no other choice than to grow up and fast. No more seeing good in people even when they are mostly awful, no more thinking people can change into something better rather than worse, no more faith in those who never deserved it. Even with just this said I feel like an unhappy middle-aged mess already. I need Utahopia, Indiana just breaks my heart.

posted by Melissa at 17:27